What if you were dead ?

What if you were dead ?

 

Will you suddenly be alright ? Will you stop suffering ? Most likely.

But you still remember the pain you felt , when your heart stopped for a second the moment you heard the word “dead” it was still this strange concept that people feared that became suddenly clear.It was right at this moment that you really fell in the abyss. That is why you promised yourself that suicide wasn’t an option despite all those thoughts swarming in your mind of you stabbing yourself in the heart with the biggest knife in the house while screaming “Will I suddenly feel something now !?”.                That’s why now you’re scared of using knives , wondering ” Will I suddenly lose control and stab myself ?”

Your fall will only lead to new ones , you don’t want to repeat that vicious circle , instead of suicide you’re thinking of being run over and maybe your parents will get money out it, if you manage to make it look like it wasn’t your goal to be ran over.Maybe at that moment, will you make your parents proud or what parents are supposed to feel.

Now repeat those words you keep saying like a prayer every night :

“Suicide is not an option.”

“Suicide is not an option.”

“Suicide is not an option.”

“Suicide is not an option.”

“Suicide is not an option.”

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