What if you were happy.
Will you suddenly spend your life smiling ? Smiling at your family , friends , neighbors, maybe you will even smile at strangers , you will smile at life.Yet you are smiling lately , you laugh , you even go out, so why are you not happy ? A passerby would see someone happy in you who is smiling , laughing , going out while it is the contrary, you spend your nights alone, your days alone , your life alone.Your family only represents discomfort in your eyes, seeing them , being around them is only hurting you deeply.Your friends forget you as fast your heartbeats that keeps growing every nocturnal panic attacks. Your neighbors, you don’t even know them, you don’t even want to know them, you don’t even want to run into them or worse be stuck with them in the elevator, by stuck you mean not even two heartbeats and for you it is a lot.Strangers at least you will never see them again, you won’t be for them a growing disappointment or a mistake yet in three heartbeats, they already analyzed you and rejected you as fast as your family did.